Samajh Nahi Aa Rha, Main Kya Karu

Hello Shivshi, yaar meri Love story badi hi complicated hai, samajh hi nhi aata ab ho kya rha hai. Actually maine aapke bhut post padhe hai toh mujhe lga me aapke saath agar apni story share karungi toh pakka mujhe koi na koi solution to mil hi jayega. That’s why I’m texting you my story..


Yaar ek saal ho gya, baat april 2015 ki hai. Ek ladka tha Main uska name bhi aapko bta deti hu, Anuj. Vo meri massi ka relative hai. Humne ek saal pehle ghar shift kiya tha toh meri Mausi humare yhan aayi thi toh vo unko lene aaya. Main uttrakhand se belong karti hu aur vo bhi, usko Main pehli nazar me hi pasand aa gyi thi aur mujhe bhi vo pasand aa gya tha.

Fir ek baar Main Mausi ke ghar gyi thi holidays me, tab Main uski family aur usse bhi mili, vo time mere liye sabse best tha. Ek din aise hi humara no. exchange ho gya aur humari WhatsApp par baat hone lagi. Vo bhi mujhe pasand karta tha aur pyar bhi karne laga tha. Usne mujhe apne past se related sab kuch btaya, 5 months tak hum bhut khush the aur ache se baat bhi karte the.

Fir baad me pta nhi mujhe kya hua yaar, Main pyar karti thi usse per fir bhi pata nhi kyu mera interest usse khatam hone laga. Vo meri wait karta tha ki main baat karu usse aur mai hi natak karti rehti thi. Fir ek din usne mujhe gusse me msg kiya – `Ab lagta hai hum saath nhi reh sakte, isse acha hai alag hi ho jaate hai.` Usne aisa kha to mujhe us time kuch khaas feel nhi hua aur us tym mene bhi usko kha – `OK`.

Ab mera pyar mujhse baat nahi karta Main Kya karu

Fir 2 mahine humari bilkul bhi baat nhi huyi. Uske baad maine hi usko ek din msg kiya, par usne dhang se baat nhi ki, unknown person ki tarah baat karne laga vo pahle waali baat hi nhi thi. Yaar ab tak bhi aisi hi baat hoti hai humari.

Samajh nhi aata Main kya karu! mujhe lagta hai usko mujhse bas attraction hi tha kyunki mere B’day January me vo achanak meri massi ke sath aaya vo din mere liye sabse bada din tha yaar. Us din humne baat ki toh vo mujhe bolta – Jab tum samne hoti ho toh main feelings ko control nhi kar pata hu, sach me lagta hai ki humare beech me kuch to hai.

Toh mene usko kha – `Relationshp me fir se aa jao` toh usne bola – `Main ready feel nhi karta ab kisi bhi relation me aane ko.` Uski is baat ne mera dil tod diya 🙁

Ab baat ye hai ki jaise vo reh rha hai Maine bhi socha me bhi aise hi rahu. Main bhi ab usko msg nhi karti. But is saturday ko uski sister ki shaadi hai aur uski mom khud humare ghar card dene aayi, aur uski family aur meri family ab kaafi mil jul gyi hai.

Yaar main kya karu? Mumny papa sab force kar rahe hai waha jaane ko aur mera bilkul bhi mann nhi hai. Jisse pyar karti hu vo hi ab mera nhi, mann hi nhi kar rha wha jaane ka. Uski mummy mujhe bhut acha manti hai, uski mummy hi nhi balki uski puri family. Ab mujhe samajh nhi aa raha jau ya nhi.

Yaar is baar mera result bhi kharab ho gya aur ye baat maine usko btaya toh usne mujhe danta aur kha – `Aur ghumo, padhyi pe dhayan nhi hai ye vo`. Us din se aaj pura ek mahina ho gya uska koi msg koi call nhi aaya.

Yaar main kya karu kuch samajh nhi aa rha 🙁 Jaau ya naa jau aur Jaau bhi toh kaise jau wha.

Aur uski ek baat.. usko apni ex-Gf se bhi nafart thi kyunki usne uske saath misbehave kiya tha, jiski vajah se unka break up hua tha. Lekin vo hamesha uske bare me bolta tha, vo bhi loyal thi. Aur vo bolta tha pta nhi uske dil me ex ke liye ek soft sa corner hai jisse vo kuch bhi kare dil kabhi bhi usko galat nhi smjhta. Pls help.

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